"YANK. LAMAR AKU DONG..."
Mungkin agak aneh ya kalimat gw diatas. Koq gw minta dilamar???hehehe... looks so desperado..
Sebenarnya kalimat itu gw ucapin antara becanda dan bener2 kepikirn tenatng itu. Mengingat umur gw yg udah 23, yg harusnya sudah memikirkan hubungan ke arah yg lebih serius (-dan gw yakin ama coo gw yg skrg, kita menjalani hubungan ini uda di dlm taraf serius-).
Hal yg semakin mendukung gw buat ngmg gitu adalah karena gw melihat beberapa org temen gw yg emang seumuran atupun ga beda jauh ama gw, suda dilamar or even just got married. Isn't it sweet? Jadinya gw pengen ikutan ngikutin trend. hehehe :P
Selanjurnya, ya cuma sekedar ingin memberikan dia awareness that i'm ready. asseekkk... hahaha.. Actually, i'm not that ready, i'm just telling that i'll be (hopefully) ready anytime you ask me from now on... Karena gw jg tau dia seperti apa, jd gw berani ngmg. Dia sendiri belum berrani ngambil commitment seperti tunangan or even married. Mudah2an bukan krn dia ga mau nikah ama gw (gehhehe)... Tpi klo gw liat, emang secara KESIAPAN, dia memang belum siap lahir dan batin. Secondly, he hasn't settled yet. Well, He needs a job. Sebenarnya dia uda bs berdiri sndiri dgn keadaan dia sprti skrg, it's just he needs something to support him through the future. Something he can hold on to it. Yeehh, it's a job. Lagian, gw jg merasa belum settled yet, even though i've been working and got my salary every month... it is still not enough to actully say that i'm already settle.
And talking about settle... Tidak hanya kesiapan diri gw yg hrs di-settle-kan. Tapi juga masalah hati dan pria yg uda gw pilih... Secara hati dan perasaan dan juga pria yg gw pilih, PUJI TUHAN, gw uda settle. Hati gw uda buat dia. And it's 100% settle. Aminn...
Gw cuma berhrap bisa menghabiskan waktu gw seumur hidup dengan orang yg gw sayangi... and i know it's him. I just need a little more time to ensure myself, him, and the whole fams.... and of course in YOUR will, GOD. :)
-it's on my every pray-...
xoxo,
DONNA.
